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Ideas in the head so great,

Quietened by the world,

Is that really the reason?

Or is it just uncertainty.

Every time she comes up with it,

The world doesn’t understand,

She can’t explain what she pictures,

For she knows that they won’t perceive.

The ones who do,

She adores them –respects them.

She is no normal girl,

There is a lot of grey matter in her mind,

It is deep hidden,

And can be seen by only those who explore.

The histories and mysteries

All trapped inside.

There is a fire that sparks up,

And dies down,

The balance of the extremes,

All in her head.

All in the head

Ideas in the head so great,

Quietened by the world,

Is that really the reason?

Or is it just uncertainty.

Every time she comes up with it,

The world doesn’t understand,

She can’t explain what she pictures,

For she knows that they won’t perceive.

The ones who do,

She adores them –respects them.

She is no normal girl,

There is a lot of grey matter in her mind,

It is deep hidden,

And can be seen by only those who explore.

The histories and mysteries

All trapped inside.

There is a fire that sparks up,

And dies down,

The balance of the extremes,

All in her head.

A dream come true

 
Ever since I saw it first,
I fell in love,
Yes it was love at first sight,
Full of hope and delight.

I wanted to experience the real one
Feel the wind in my hair,
Hear the sound of the water,
And just be there.

Years after years I planned
To go to another land
but strange are the ways of the world
You don't get things until they are earned

Finally the dream seemed to be coming true
Just when everything was subdued
just when the other hopes were lost
Just when I had to rise

I saw .. I felt ..
I heard ..I smelt
It was no less than a dream.
Every bit just fit in flawlessly.

Content as I was
when I thought I'd be crying out happy tears
Calm I was
when I thought id be jumping out of excitement.

As I walked through
I could feel the space opening up
As I heard I figured water was just not it
It was the rustling of the leaves and the chirping of the bird

As I left the place I realised
It was something that would stay with me for life
A moment of learning
Just a moment of life

 

Lost and lost till there was nothing to lose ,And there came a point,
Where she emerged as the winner
and there was no looking back!

Smile and laughed a happy laugh,
and noone could see the sorrow ,
In her heart only she knew,
What she had lost ,
will stay in there for ever.

The broken pieces that reminded her
every single waking day that the world will not be the same
she had to let go but
she drowned the sorrows an the deepest corners
 

Expressions

A general heart warming session at office regarding work submission that didn’t go very well in terms of quality teaches you so much in terms of dealing with things in life and makes you realise that oh .. Gosh!! There are so many things to learn in future .there will be failures (sometimes major, sometimes minor) and so many things to realise from in the past and from other peoples experiences. Well what one perceives out of what the other one intends is exactly never the same not only in terms of the deliverer and receiver but also between receivers.

Today what I learnt and realised was “walking another mile does matter “and also that while growing up there were tensions that mommy and daddy you faced several times and at the age of 27 I can’t even think of that one moment when you would have snapped at us or not given us your time and not sorting out our trivial issues. Dad you being in the army its now I realise the responsibility you had .. Handling so many people their issues your subordinates, peers and bosses (oh gosh its tough dealing with just eight out here .)The kind of pressure that was immense .Mum you being there at all times rushing to you to tell you all the silly little stories. Thanks for being so strong in bringing us up...Thanks for being so understanding...I know there have been times I have fought with you unreasonably and you’ve let us have things our way just so that we may learn. I am not complaining but just want to apologise if there is anything we’ve done to hurt you...it’s just that I am still learning to handle peer pressure... Anytime I haven’t called you and spoken to you... Absolutely been irresponsible with that... Just that I do take you for granted because I know you will be there at all time no matter where I am and what I do...

Love both of you to bits I wish I cud be more like you...

Realisation!

"Why so far "

"Because I want to grow, I’ll be happy" 

She didn’t get the point then and those were the words from her father .The only logic she could come up with was if I go overseas it’ll be fine with you but I’m just going be in the same country .Now she realises sitting miles away how tough it is for a father to let his daughter go away-to face the realities of life all by herself, get hurt and bruised with no one to take care of her. 

She recalls the words he had asked 5 years back-“ Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?” and she had replied without any hesitation “Happy ,wherever I am whatever I do” and she just awaits for the 5 years to exactly tell him proudly with her head held high-“ Dad here I am far away from you ,really hoping I  had a lot of time to spend at home under your shade ,but I have been successful and have kept my word making all efforts to achieve what I had said 5 years back-I am Happy where I am and it sure wasn’t easy. I met the good and the bad, people guided and misguided me .Fortunately i landed at the right places at the right time and am glad I made it to where I am.I love you papa and I am where I am just cuz u asked me that question 5 years ago”

Speechless

"Miracle miracle "she cried aloud

Standing admist the crowd

Everyone carried on with no response

Darn! she realise then

It was the thoughts screaming out

Not a sound was heard