Expressions

A general heart warming session at office regarding work submission that didn’t go very well in terms of quality teaches you so much in terms of dealing with things in life and makes you realise that oh .. Gosh!! There are so many things to learn in future .there will be failures (sometimes major, sometimes minor) and so many things to realise from in the past and from other peoples experiences. Well what one perceives out of what the other one intends is exactly never the same not only in terms of the deliverer and receiver but also between receivers.

Today what I learnt and realised was “walking another mile does matter “and also that while growing up there were tensions that mommy and daddy you faced several times and at the age of 27 I can’t even think of that one moment when you would have snapped at us or not given us your time and not sorting out our trivial issues. Dad you being in the army its now I realise the responsibility you had .. Handling so many people their issues your subordinates, peers and bosses (oh gosh its tough dealing with just eight out here .)The kind of pressure that was immense .Mum you being there at all times rushing to you to tell you all the silly little stories. Thanks for being so strong in bringing us up...Thanks for being so understanding...I know there have been times I have fought with you unreasonably and you’ve let us have things our way just so that we may learn. I am not complaining but just want to apologise if there is anything we’ve done to hurt you...it’s just that I am still learning to handle peer pressure... Anytime I haven’t called you and spoken to you... Absolutely been irresponsible with that... Just that I do take you for granted because I know you will be there at all time no matter where I am and what I do...

Love both of you to bits I wish I cud be more like you...

Realisation!

"Why so far "

"Because I want to grow, I’ll be happy" 

She didn’t get the point then and those were the words from her father .The only logic she could come up with was if I go overseas it’ll be fine with you but I’m just going be in the same country .Now she realises sitting miles away how tough it is for a father to let his daughter go away-to face the realities of life all by herself, get hurt and bruised with no one to take care of her. 

She recalls the words he had asked 5 years back-“ Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?” and she had replied without any hesitation “Happy ,wherever I am whatever I do” and she just awaits for the 5 years to exactly tell him proudly with her head held high-“ Dad here I am far away from you ,really hoping I  had a lot of time to spend at home under your shade ,but I have been successful and have kept my word making all efforts to achieve what I had said 5 years back-I am Happy where I am and it sure wasn’t easy. I met the good and the bad, people guided and misguided me .Fortunately i landed at the right places at the right time and am glad I made it to where I am.I love you papa and I am where I am just cuz u asked me that question 5 years ago”

Speechless

"Miracle miracle "she cried aloud

Standing admist the crowd

Everyone carried on with no response

Darn! she realise then

It was the thoughts screaming out

Not a sound was heard

Story of my life.... just the beginning

Well I so totally have to start with this--While every parent was busy teaching their kids the do’s and don’ts of life, my parents just let me live mine my way! I still remember mommy telling one of her friends “I’ve decided to let them make their own mistakes and learn it the hard way”--So totally the best way to bring up an Arian. I being an army Brat was brought up in different parts of the country and i now realise, how wonderful life has been. I am so glad I got the constant change which a lot of people dread due to the fact that they have to meet new people adjust to the new place and make new friends all over again. I wouldn’t say that all it was a cake walk anyway .It was ups and downs all the way long. To sum up ,though life has given me so much that i actually feel blessed ... I’ve run like a wild horse in the open fields... Fallen on my knees badly wounded and gotten up stronger and continued on the journey of life with a clearer focus in my head...Oh yes the word “focus” rings bells in my head.. When I was a kid my dear mom and dad used to tell me and my sister at bed time” you better hit the bed, or else focus will arrive”—those days focus was a telecast on doordarshan when the TV screen would go black and white and VIBGYOR. We would then just get scared and put our heads under the sheets of bed and sleep. Ever since then i guess there has been a aversion from the word “focus”.

Carrying on with life .I have stories to tell lots of them I’ll be back soon with them .Until then take care Adios